Prose

I want to not want
I want to look at others,
compare what they have
to what I have,
and count my blessings.

I want to not feel.
When I stare at a tv.laptop.film
screen
and see people mourning,
I want to not feel grief
eating its way out of my flesh.

I want to not know.
To unlearn everything
I've learned
over the years.
So I can begin afresh.
Turn a fresh page. blank canvas. whatever.

More than anything, though
I want to write.
Create.
Inhabit new worlds.
Write a future unseen and not known